Day 2: Hope

Posted on June 28, 2010. Filed under: Athletic, Week 1 | Tags: , , , , , , , |

So, it’s been about a week since I was officially Athletic, I’ve been intermittently jogging and trying to eat healthy but I haven’t been very strict by any means. I’m back now. Thanks to all of you for understanding. One thing has changed about this experiment though: I’m going to wake up later. This morning I woke up at 8am because a friend of mine from the military took Noah and I at 9 am on one of his routine workouts from the army days.

I made myself Broccoli and goat cheese Egg Scramble
before the workout which I have to say was amazing. This means a lot coming from me because I usually hate scrambled eggs but the broccoli and cheese really made the dish phenomenal. Seriously, this dish was amazing, too bad it had so much cholesterol in it…though I hear that there are “good” and “bad” cholesterols and eggs have the good stuff.

I found a way to make calorie counting really easy. This website that is completely free lets you enter in your own recipes and tack them onto a food log, it then tells you everything you need to know about how balanced your food was for the day. I suggest you take a look; it’s kind of addictive and makes me more motivated to eat healthy and exercise. Go to and by the way, I totally should be getting paid for this plug in but unfortunately I just sincerely like it.


I liked the workout, we started with stretching, then pushups and jumping jacks, and then we jogged for a while. Just when it seemed I couldn’t go any farther we would stop to do some lunges which for a second felt like a reprieve up until I got to jogging right after. It seemed that whenever the run seemed to be too much we would go to the side and do another exercise which really kept me on my toes and was a good way to distract me from being so incredibly tired. I almost made it all the way to the end, and only started lagging behind right before we finished.



After the run we had to walk for a while which was something I hated and was grateful for at the same time. I think if I had just laid down after the jog I would have vomited so it was good we walked even though I was hating it. After the walk we stretched and we would have done some more workouts but I was too tired. Still, I’m pretty glad to try it and we’ll be doing it again tomorrow.

What? Am I supposed to look happy that I have a case of lobster face?


After the workout I felt really invigorated. I understood that energized feeling of wanting to be active as much as possible, and I felt an extra motivation to do more. For lunch I made Garden Vegetable Quiche
which took about 2 hours to make! It was quite a process, something I’ve never really made before so I was up for the challenge.


After everything was mixed I looked at the direction telling me to put it all in a 3-quart baking dish. I looked in the shelf below the oven and there were only 3 baking dishes, none of which were anywhere near 3 quarts. I started to panic a little and found a giant baking pan that I really didn’t want to use. I finally realized I had no other choice and poured it in and added the toppings. When I opened the oven I remembered that the Noah’s family put all the baking dishes in the oven! There was the coveted 3-quart baking dish sandwiched between 400 degree baking pans. It was too late to de-topping the quiche so I just had to accept defeat.


The quiche was alright by my standards. I didn’t add enough cheese and I think the batter could do with some salt, but Noah and his mom liked it, perhaps I just have high standards.


Later that night I went to the gym for some weight training. I hate weight training! I feel this primitive anger whenever I work out and instead of it empowering me it just makes me feel defeated and stressed out. I don’t like being angry. I’ll keep trying at it because I know it’s something I might get used to but I honestly hate it!


I didn’t nearly meet my 1900 calorie goal for the day though I had a generally balanced day nutritionally speaking (except for being very low on carbs). I’m honestly really surprised about how the eating part is such a challenge, and not a challenge in the way I expected! I’ll have to figure out how to eat more, I think I don’t need to be as strict on my diet as I thought I would.

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Day 1: Baby Steps

Posted on June 18, 2010. Filed under: Athletic, Week 1 | Tags: , , , , , , , |

The night before Day 1 I went to bed at 9pm to make sure to get a full 8 hours of sleep. I dreamt the whole night of the day to come and when the alarm sounded I was surprised to see that I hadn’t even started my experiment yet when in my dreams I had already begun Day 2.


I’m not the most organized or time efficient person in the world and before I started I had scheduled the morning like this:

  • 5:00 AM:
    • Brush teeth
    • Stretch
    • Run
  • 5:30 AM:
    • make breakfast
    • take shower
    • rub down (because of my psoriasis’ recent re-emergence I’ve been rubbing myself down with shea butter)

This really didn’t work as planned and it was 5:30 until I finally got to run.


Running SUCKED! I didn’t make it too far before I had to stop. I was heaving and there was a very sharp pain in my throat. It really was my throat that made the whole thing impossible. There must be something in the air there, or maybe it’s the temperature or the time, but whenever I run near my house I get this excruciating pain in my throat. Later on I was tasting blood in my mouth. I spit but fortunately I didn’t see any blood. I meant to run a mile out but probably only made it half way if that. I was incredibly disappointed with myself and felt like a failure. It seems to be a general pattern that the first day of my experiments feels like an incredible failure.


For breakfast (which started at 6:30, not 5:30) I had Scrambled Egg Whites with Spinach and Orange. It was an interesting recipe I found on a site that seemed to be focused on losing weight, something I didn’t think to consider when I printed it out. It’s hard to focus on health when so such a majority of fitness and health driven books and websites focus on weight loss. I don’t really care about losing weight; if I lost more than 10 pounds I would be underweight!



It’s kind of strange to calorie count and also be on a strict healthy diet but not have the goal to lose weight, and it makes sense that so many health-related books would be focused on weight loss. One cookbook I found that looks incredibly promising is the “Mayo Clinic Cookbook” which has recipes and nutrition facts for meals. It doesn’t seem to have a weight loss agenda, just focused on healthy, balanced eating.


I had the choice between staying at Noah’s house or my house for the month and I decided it would be best to be at his place which is right next to a gym and closer to everything in general. I realized last night that my house had a huge advantage: the food. I needed healthy food, and Noah’s place was stocked with all the processed stuff I should avoid (with almost no fresh veggies or herbs). I knew my house already had the staples needed to make healthy food and thus I wouldn’t have to buy as much which is pretty important seeing as I’m as of late unemployed and already dirt poor.


When I told my mom I would be biking to and from the house she greatly feared for my safety (the roads are really windy with low visibility) and said she’d help with grocery costs so I could stay with Noah. After the run I had to agree that my house is very unforgiving for exercise and general location (pretty much 45 minutes away from anything…when driving!). She offered to help me with groceries (THANK YOU MOM!)!


I spent the rest of the day at the library researching how to calorie count and stuff. I found out I should ingest 1900 calories a day, which actually seemed like too much when I factored in all the food I’d had today. If I were to follow the plan I made initially I would have taken in only 1,280 calories so I decided to stop by a smoothie shop (since I was low on my fruit intake) and get a fruit smoothie which was 230 calories, I had 385 calories left to ingest for the whole day…pretty good for my first day, I thought that would be hard to do!

This should never be my concern for the month!



I was supposed to go to the gym at 4 but I completely forgot. I remember sitting in the library and realizing I set my phone to go off silent at 3:45. I had reminded myself earlier that tomorrow and the day after were rest days, meaning I didn’t have to worry too much about when I got to bed, so I didn’t need to go shopping or prepare the food at 5 since I didn’t have to wake up so early. In my haste to judge my own absentmindedness in already forgetting to stop worrying about making dinner right away, I forgot that I still had to go to the gym at 4, which was why I set the phone on timed silent anyway… God I am so absentminded! But I need to stop getting so down on myself, I’m sure by the end of this experiment my mind will be sharp and clear from all the healthy eating and exercising.

Oh, and here’s my (hypothesized) daily schedule (excluding rest days):

5:00 AM: Wake up, brush teeth, take pills

5:15 AM: Stretch

5:30 AM: run (the times between running and making breakfast are subject to change)

6:15 AM: Make breakfast

6:45 AM: Take shower

7:00 AM: Rub Down

7:15 AM: Record Wellness Calendar

11:00 AM: prepare lunch

4:00 PM: go to gym

5:00PM: Prepare Dinner

5:30 -6:00 PM: Eat Dinner

7:00 PM: Brush teeth, wash face

8:00 PM: Get in bed (read or whatever while in bed, I should just get in bed early in case it takes me forever to fall asleep)

9:00 PM: Sleep


By the way, almost forgot to say what my dinner was (lunch was at a Pho noodle house because Noah needed to be picked up around lunch time and we were both too hungry to drive around and prepare a meal. But dinner was Tofu and Broccoli Stir Fry.
I know, such a cop-out, but I thought I’d start easy, healthy and tasty for my first day. I realized pretty quickly that I can’t simply follow the rules for stir fry, I’m just too used to making it my way. I ended up putting in twice as much broccoli as directed and to make up for it twice as much bok choy. It still turned out great!

Also, my grandma got sick today, I ended up staying up until 4:30 because after I got back from the hospital I couldn’t sleep so Noah and I watched two movies (we would have watched 1 but the first movie was super depressing so we put in a comedy).

Here’s my caloric breakdown for the day:

Breakfast: 168

Salad after breakfast: 56

Lunch: 404

Smoothie after lunch: 230

Dinner: 634 (well, most likely half of that)

So I had around 1492 calories today! Pretty good for the first day…though perhaps my calculations are wrong. I definitely need to do a lot more research on what exactly to do for my diet, it’s incredibly complicated! The way I structure my diet is definitely subject to change!

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Experiment #3: Athletic

Posted on June 16, 2010. Filed under: Athletic, Week 1 | Tags: , , , , , , , , |

Fitness and Me

Sometimes I wonder if I was a vegetable in my past life. I love just laying. I love being absolutely still, reading on the couch or surfing the Internet or watching TV. Sometimes I’ll just lay in bed because I dread moving. I’ve been blessed with a fast metabolism and a small build but don’t be fooled. I’m the laziest person I know. My favorite part of the day is either dinner time or bed time. If someone from the future came up to me and told me I would become very fat when I got older I’d say “yeah, I’m well aware of that, you seriously traveled time to tell me??”


I did attempt to work out for a while, and it was great, but also terrible. Running is alright and I can imagine it being fun. Working out (lifting weights, doing crunches etc) I HATE! I don’t know where to begin or where to end. It begins to make me feel incredibly helpless and angry, and then on top of that the straining makes me feel even more helpless. Also, I don’t generally like the idea of working out, I like working for a goal, and if the goal is so intangible as “Well, I’ll look really good in a few weeks!”
then it doesn’t feel like I’m achieving anything short term.


Sports, well, not my thing either, in fact I’d have to say the sports section in the newspaper and ESPN are the places you will never find me focusing one brain cell on. I used to play basketball for 6 years from Kindergarten to 6th grade. They called me “the glue” I was crazy good at defense. I think it was the Asian in me, but I darted left and right like nobody’s business. Still, in the whole 6 years of playing I only made 1 basket, and I rarely would watch my own games. I also used to ride horses passionately until the habit got to be too expensive.


I think what makes the idea of fitness so daunting is also the consistency it requires. I’m not the most consistent person in the world, in fact I abhor routine and the like. No day is ever the same as before. I couldn’t even describe my typical day because there is no typical day. The most consistent thing I do is take my daily thyroid pill in the morning, and what time in the morning is always subjective, so I couldn’t even count that.


So overall, I’d say fitness and especially sports are in a dark dusty corner of my brain…which makes this experiment all the more interesting!


What’s going to happen?

I think I’m going to tackle both fitness and regiment in this month.

  • Everything I can schedule will be scheduled.
  • I will have a wellness calendar stating when I exercised, what I did, and how I felt.
  • I’ll be recording hours of sleep, calorie intake, energy levels, and miles run.
  • Every morning (except Fridays and Saturdays) will begin at 5 AM and end at 9PM.
  • Fridays and Saturdays will be my rest days (it says in the various fitness books that I need to have some rest days in the week).
  • My diet will be very healthy and balanced. I will make sure to post what I’ve eaten, how much, and the nutrition facts.
  • I’ll start my morning with a jog, end the day at the gym, and I’ll try to use my bike to get anywhere and everywhere.
  • When I’m not being active I’ll sit down and watch some ESPN or any other sports channel or I’ll read about fitness/sports online or in a book.
  • I’ll try to do as many sports as possible and attempt to surround myself with other athletic people.


This will most likely be a very difficult month, and I’m not sure I’ll be able to keep up, but Noah has accepted the new role of drill sergeant and will drag me out of bed if need be. There are many different types of athletic people: some do it for the looks, some do it to train for a specific sport, some do it for health, and others do it because they enjoy it. I want to aim for health and try to enjoy it. I want this to consume me, to be my every being.


I expect that I will learn a lot from this month and it will most likely be one of the hardest months, but I’m excited to see just exactly what happens.

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Posted on June 11, 2010. Filed under: Unrelated Posts | Tags: , , , , , , |

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It’s official, I’m going to be Athletic sometime within the next few weeks! Stick around!

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The Psoriasis Predicament

Posted on June 4, 2010. Filed under: Unrelated Posts | Tags: , , , , , , , , , |

I have had psoriasis since I was 14. Essentially, I like to think of psoriasis as me being Wolverine (super fast healing) except that along with healing fast, my skin keeps growing long after the injury/irritation. This creates patches of dead skin hanging out on my body. I usually pick them off, making the patches grow back even stronger than before and spread further. It usually starts on my scalp, then after considerable amounts of stress or drinking it will slowly start showing up on my chest/abdomen.


When the condition is at its worst, I feel like I’m wearing a fat suit: I don’t want anyone to see me, I feel like everyone thinks I’m disgusting, covered in flakes and scales. It’s also incredibly uncomfortable to wear clothing, moving around in general chafes and irritates the already irritated patches. There are creams but they aren’t meant to be used long term and usually patches fade and reappear or move to another spot.


It has been a very difficult to combat the disease, and the only thing that has always worked is Enbrel, an injectable medication. I used to take Enbrel twice a week when I was younger, but eventually I stopped because my psoriasis was pretty much all gone. When I started college it gradually came back and got really bad and eventually I went back on Enbrel. The problem was that the company changed how I injected myself; now instead of a vial to mix and a needle to inject myself with it was an auto injector. Kind of like an EpiPen where I had to push it down on my leg, press a button and in that little chamber of horrors was a terrifying click accompanied with excruciating pain which I had to tolerate for the longest 15 seconds in the world.


I quickly developed a phobia of this “Sureclick Auto Injector” and Noah and I resorted to him forcefully holding me down while I kicked and screamed and cried and pleaded. It was a difficult time. For insurance reasons my dose was lowered and I got to a middle ground of auto-filled but non-auto-inject needles. This was somewhat better, but the pain of injecting was the same if not worse. I couldn’t go through with it. The crippling fear was gone, but I could not push something into me and let it flow in my veins while feeling the pain it caused me.


Luckily, my psoriasis has been gone as of late and so I haven’t had to resort to Enbrel or tanning. I have a tanning package, but only wanted to use it sparingly, you know, cause of the carcinogens and all. But this put a lot of pressure on me. As soon as I began to notice psoriasis patches in early June, I began to tan, but I realized this was only a temporary solution, and didn’t get rid of the psoriasis on my scalp.


The worst thing about this is the amount of stress and fear it instills in me. I know that if I’m stressed I’m encouraging my psoriasis and knowing that I can’t do anything to make myself not stressed makes me more scared and more stressed. It’s a scary feeling, knowing how many terrible things accompany all of it.


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